The weekends of January 2011

Mango float ni Alonagurl. As usual favorite green ang container. THis is the original Mango float..kita mo tlaga na nakalutang ung mangga nya dba? Our first weekend treat Jan 8, 2011.

Did I say this broke one of those resolutions? Tsk, tsk...week 1 pa lang yan.

Entering the Year of the Senses

For the past years I have this consistent feeling of dread every time I think of getting back to work after the long holidays..may it be Christmas or the holy week.

Those years I was based in Cagayan and Iloilo. When it's time to get back I feel like resigning. I have to drag myself to pack my stuff to leave, its been heart breaking and I thought the feeling would only grow worse as the years gets on.

Oh well, this year turned out differently. For one I did not feel the boundary of the new years day like I used to feel before. If I must define it, the connection was a large hall of a huge train station where people are milling about going back and forth, talking on the phone, picking up package of documents. A certain number have a dazed look in their eyes...I was not one of them, I was among those people who expect to get their documents thru email to the next year.

Arriving at the waiting area I did not feel sad or burdened- I was 80% nonchalant, 20 % anxious as I got on the train of 2011.

I did not feel the usual reluctance getting back to the daily grind. I wasn't certainly inspired but I guess I must have had an unconscious plan (?) or I must have matured(?), or I don't know what I'm doing, phasing out again, darn!

At least some change..(?)

I'm felt ready again. I can stay far away longer I think and perhaps I might try and cross the oceans this year.

Oh well, you know what happened on the day after the new year? If I'd known? What would I have done differently? Well what can I have possibly done that would change it (?) hmmm not much...I'm just thankful I got here safe enough.

I hope your 2011 is better bloggy. ;)

aw! My back hurt!

2011 Resolutions: make or break?

in order of remembrance..lol!

1.More water, junk SODA! Good ol' sparkling water on regular days, the unavoidable hot chocolate for breakfast and occasional tea at night. Really, its no cake and ice cream too.! (This should be -no more refined sugar but it would look really boring and i would think "deprived" so fast I might lose before the end of the month.) Too many exceptions already! So far I have broken this rule once on Mt. Dew with a threat from my best friend last Tuesday, jan-4. Is that good? ;)

2. Less reading is better than none. Reading isn't bad at all, right? But If you know me, it has been near obsessive. I can finish 3 books in a week especially if its a series! You only have to see my facebook account to know just how many I did last year, certainly more than 52! This year I must exercise discipline. Apart from the adventures ( i have a whole new library on this!) I should insert some marketing books (thats a new genre for me) Summit Chicklit are okay but no more all nighters ( i hope i won't meet the book that would break this resolve as i do have a lot on reserve right now). Discipline, discipline.

3. Sleep early, 10 pm at the latest. My morning thoughts last year were filled with dreaming of the next time I'd be back in bed. This year, I'd like to get enough snooze time -about 8 hrs amap! As I haven't got TV habits paired with a successful #2, this should be easy.

4. No more long drives at night alone. I had been living on the edge. in the past. I have no respect at all for any colored alerts; Red, Blue, whatever, they're all the same highway to me. I did have too many near accidents such as brake failure, consumed break lining, exploding tire, dried up oil, almost side sweeping, beating the red light and getting caught, wet-road-almost-accident, almost-head-on with a truck, hitting the coconut tree, hitting a power box, getting side swept by a van- I mean, I've been spared too many time last year I ought to be grateful by practicing greater care on the road this time.

2011 did welcome me with big car trouble too, what with my car still at the shop for the 3rd day now. Officially commuting for the mean time!;)

5. I'm listening. Too bad I also planned this one last year but with little or no conscious effort. I am hoping that I will be successful this time around. The point is, i am much of a talker. How will I learn anything about other people if I only love to listen to my own voice? I know most everything about me I'm sure. I must hear my friends out this year whatever it takes. I'll be arbiter.

6. Retreat. I'll have 5-7 days of solitude this year, Yes! Leaving Iloilo, i thought i'd be spiritually stronger because I'll have the means, the freedom and the time but I haven't attended 1 single meeting in almost 2 years from moving.

Floating at the surface again.

I had been happier before- actually, there was peace in the quiet and I was joyful.

Huh! Do you even know how it feels to be in a honeymoon phase with the supreme, bloggy? Probably not, but I've been there and there is just nothing quite like it. I wanna be at least in-the-presence again or I'll go mad.

I thought I have at least 10 here but it seems I have to think hard on what else..

7. Patient. That's what I'm not and with all the tears it had cost me you'd think I'd have learned. This year I'm not planning to be in crying spells again, apologizing for it because of impatience.

8. Attentive. When I'm watching TV, you don't talk to me -because I would be far away. I'm inside of the show that I don't hear you. Yes, I have every tendency of getting lost in whatever I'm engaged in, reading, dancing, singing, thinking, doing stuff-you know..that I'm totally absorbed. My hands might be working on something here but my awareness could be miles away unreachable. So I phase out much of the I plan to lessen the occurrence. No idea how that's gonna be.

9. Organized. Something else that I'm not, that's why I might sometimes become my friends' biggest push-over. So this year I am working and living on a schedule the whole 52 weeks! I'll have my reports done MONDAYS and SATURDAYS.

10. Boundaries. Absolutely not working on Sundays, my weekendns will be accounted for this year. So's my finances. 2 ATM's, 2 separate lives.

New year, New blog

or so i hope..

My reputation for this things aren't good, but we are all entitled to plan something afresh every turn of the year and I'm taking that privilege. :)

So in this rabbit year of the senses- i want to write something weekly. Whatever it is, i hope its useful stuff and it will certainly be something that interest me.

This is not exactly private and confidential but I'm not advertising this to my friends, nah!

So dear blog..poke me if I forget you.. and may this year bring us something sensible, sensual and substantial- within that territory. ;0