Those years I was based in Cagayan and Iloilo. When it's time to get back I feel like resigning. I have to drag myself to pack my stuff to leave, its been heart breaking and I thought the feeling would only grow worse as the years gets on.
Oh well, this year turned out differently. For one I did not feel the boundary of the new years day like I used to feel before. If I must define it, the connection was a large hall of a huge train station where people are milling about going back and forth, talking on the phone, picking up package of documents. A certain number have a dazed look in their eyes...I was not one of them, I was among those people who expect to get their documents thru email to the next year.
Arriving at the waiting area I did not feel sad or burdened- I was 80% nonchalant, 20 % anxious as I got on the train of 2011.
I did not feel the usual reluctance getting back to the daily grind. I wasn't certainly inspired but I guess I must have had an unconscious plan (?) or I must have matured(?), or I don't know what I'm doing, phasing out again, darn!
At least some change..(?)
I'm felt ready again. I can stay far away longer I think and perhaps I might try and cross the oceans this year.
Oh well, you know what happened on the day after the new year? If I'd known? What would I have done differently? Well what can I have possibly done that would change it (?) hmmm not much...I'm just thankful I got here safe enough.
I hope your 2011 is better bloggy. ;)
aw! My back hurt!
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